I hate life right now. not because of a ton of things but just the fact that im kinda in a hole. my best friend just left for iraq today. and i didnt even know until last night. if i could just go back in time and make sure i got to say goodbye the right way i would feel so much better. i cannot control what happens from here. that is in Gods hands. He is the only one with absolute control. all i can do is pray. I hope he comes back. alive