Savior

painful cries
of fear and longing
always bring me back
to what has been lost
but its always darkest before the dawn
and still i sit here waiting
for the light to shine
still waiting in the darkness alone waiting
waiting to feel someones hand
and a voice saying
i love you
for who you are
what you will be
i love you becuase your you
because you bring a smile to my face
waiting in the night for someone..
waiting for the chance
to just get away
to get out
to go home
to feel like i belong
why is it that everytime
i come around out of the shadows
i fall back inside
why cant i just stay in the light
why cant i destroy the one thing ripping me apart
its so hard to talk to the two people
that gave me my life
my home
my sisters
why cant i just show my weakness
why cant i show the real me
people wonder why i am so angry
can i tell you where im at
can i show you the other side of me
will you run away if you see me
i feel the darkness pulling me deeper and deeper into nothing
if i could say one thing
it would be that i love all of the people around me.
and everything that they have done for me
and i will always be eternally greatful
but i can see my future looking bright
but i see my present in the darkness trying to find the light
and i cant do it alone...
so lost in the darkness i cry out
screaming till my lungs give out
save me